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The Art of Mindf*cking

Tuesday, June 17, 2008
This is an e-mail that I received a very long time ago. This is an excellent way to mindf*ck.
 
 
I’ve had enough.

No, don’t try to reason with me, this is too much. I will try not to think of you when I wake up in the morning and ask myself if somehow you are also awake. I have my own life to lead and my own life to think of. No, I won’t even think of you while I’m eating my lunch wondering if you’re doing the same thing, because
sooner or later I know you will. No, never again will I go to the comfort room and lock myself in just to have some privacy to piteously think of you, cry, sing or do some silly things because of you. And no, never will i again think of you last when I go to sleep. Sleep is my only rest, so please don’t plague me in my dreams. I am moving on. I’ll try to wake up in the morning and smile and think not of why you left but that once you stayed. And if I feel the need to cry, it will not be for the future that we could have, not for the regrets that I have nor of the anger that i feel, but I will cry because of a love that I never was able to share with the one man I felt it for. I will cry for the love that was lost, and not for the man who left. I will give my affections to any man who is need of it, but not my heart because I still am trying to get it back from you. I will give him the love that you never wanted, the kiss that I so longed to give you and the words that once was yours. Worthy or not worthy of it, at least he’s here, you’re not. I’ll try to hold back the tears when I think of you. I’ll just try to smile.

I am moving on.. and hoping that the next thing would be letting go.
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Previous Comments

bitter indeed.

Posted by chiclatte at June 23, 2008, 10:13 pm

which should come first, moving or letting go? because for me, it’s the other way around. how can u move on if u haven’t let go? just asking… ;p

Posted by fc at July 6, 2008, 8:27 pm

moving on pla…sori kulang! hehe

Posted by fc at July 6, 2008, 8:29 pm

does it really matter? those are just women’s inventions to make life complicated.

Posted by TBB at July 11, 2008, 10:59 pm

It is so natural to human to act selfish when he/she failed to get what he/she wants.

Bitter,hopeless and misarable are the effect of not letting go of the past.

Dudey, the water in your eyes is the only answer…i am giving you a month to do this excercise..then check your self.

The only painful part is when your heart beats like someone is stabbing….it is your ego and being too much kind..you ended as a loser.

Posted by HORNET at September 25, 2008, 12:42 pm

what exercise

Posted by TBB at October 5, 2008, 10:35 am

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